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I'm 24. I love to love and be loved. I think in weird ways. I love fashion. I love art. I'm an artist. Art fuels my heart. I like to read. I'm creative. I'm independent. A Workaholic. I do my own mani & pedi. I hate putting on lotion. I've only been in love once. When I love, I give my all. I'm want to be successful. I'm not family oriented, although I'd like to be. My dog is one of the only living things that keeps me sane. I live on my own. I'm not in debt. I hate summer. Music expresses me. I love performing arts. I miss dance and the 10 yrs of time I've put into it. I want to write a book. I love my friends. I don't have any enemies. I've sinned. I pray. I'm not really religious, but I believe in G-d. I've finished school, undergrad. I hate my jobs. I want to eventually get married. I love to imagine in different ways. I think I'm unique. I can be nice, but I'm more of a bitch. I can't tolerate stupid people. I...

Secrets...I don't even know where to begin. I guess I have encountered some secrets that were kept from me and lied about. What I'm trying to say is that no matter how long you keep a secret it will always and in most instances slip out somewhere somehow. Lets start with the fact that if its about a friend and you're hiding something from them that will affect perhaps your friendship with that person, it is almost in all cases better to be honest about it and tell the TRUTH, then lie knowing that most likely you won't get away with it. The incident that I came across might be relevant to what I'm writing about but I just don't care enough to write all about it and go into detail since I had to deal with it for the last couple hours which was a complete waste of my time.  Lets just say when you have a secret that you want to keep to yourself and its def. important not to share it with someone then by all means keep your mouth shut. But if for any reason you belie...

It's very important to take care of yourself and remember to always make ME time. No matter what happens its all about how you feel in the end of the day and if you forget to take care of yourself no one else will. Taking care of yourself can include anything from doing your nails and hair for the ladies, playing ball and shaving for the gents, to just keeping clean, dressing appropriately, reading, listening to things you like, eating right, exercising, etc. No one else will do these things for you but YOU, something to keep in mind! What you do for yourself reflects on your mood, and the way others perceive you, which isn't really that important always its really how you feel inside out that really matters. Don't forget to make time for yourself and what you want in life. Whether in a relationship or single you can't forget about yourself. I know it gets tough when one is in a relationship its hard to remember about yourself and find time for  what I like to refer to...

and sometimes it still hurts..... a lot.... I wish I can say more but I just can't... I have to stay strong.

Despite some of the bullshit I've been going thru this year I can finally say that I've learned so much about myself and that I'm finally back and comfortable in my skin and HAPPY. One thing that most of us seem to misunderstand at times is that happiness comes within, its inside you and what happy means to me is going to be different from what happy means to you. Others can't make you happy until you yourself find that within. Not your family, your man, your friends, or anyone. It all depends on you and how you define it for yourself. I can finally feel it again, although this might sound cliche to some of you, I feel like my prayers are finally being answered, and I do believe that each and every one of us has a purpose in this life. On a lighter note although very much in relation to this topic, I've been dying and I mean really dying to go to the Lady Gaga concert since this weekend when I found out the show was this week!!!On such short notice I started to se...

I'm not sure where this is going to go but I just know that I want to write. A million things go thru my mind daily. Some positive, some negative, thoughts about my new year, the goals I want to achieve, the target I want to have, my love life, my family problems, my friends, my future, my problems that I want to solve. Sometimes I'm motivated and want to do the best for myself and at times just by seeing one small thing or hearing something that can disappoint me and I lose my focus. Same way one tiny incident or a few caring words from someone even a stranger can pick me back up and throw me back on the train of motivation. It all depends on your surrounding and the people you choose to have with you on the path to a brighter future. It's difficult cutting certain people out of your life but at times its the only choice you have to have a better life. Starting the new year thats one of my resolutions to keep only the positive people around and get rid of all those who a...