Sunday, December 6, 2009
just thoughts.... after being in a trap
Hi everyone this is my first blog, I haven't really wrote one in quite a long time. I'd like to express myself by revealing my feelings and thoughts from time to time. At this time I'm going thru what you can call a revelation. I've realized that the person I was dating on and off for 3 yrs now has turned out to be a complete stranger to me. I know him inside out probably better than he knows himself but I'd prefer for him to be a stranger from now on. Although we've lived together for about 2 yrs the whole relationship was pretty much on my shoulders because i was the head of the relationship unfortunately because I was blindly in love. But what can you say more than just shit happens and you have to live and learn and move on. It was almost like babysitting a child, he had no job was trying to do stuff with his life but it wasn't really working out, and i can admit that he was pretty much taking advantage of the situation, but because love is so blind i closed my eyes to it. I do believe that he did love me for most of the relationship but he lost control because of a family issue and strayed away. i don't want to be bitter i just want to let go and forgive to move on. If i don't forgive I'll never move on so its the best choice.
So as someone said today "love can feel like heaven, but it can also hurt like hell," so please ladies be careful and just stay positive and do whats good for you. In the end of the day its all about you and your happiness and if your man doesn't make you happy let him go, its the best thing you can do for yourself. God Bless and Goodnight.