Thursday, November 4, 2010

Random Thoughts....

I haven't blogged in so long that I don't even know where to begin. I have so many thoughts and ideas I'd love to share with everyone.

First off lets start with some books. If you haven't yet read Valley of the Dolls, one of the biggest  classics out there you most definitely have too. It's one of the most amazing books I've read. It's about a couple of girls starting up in NYC in the entertainment world and then moving to LA and back and their trials and tribulations with the industry, relationships both professional and personal as well as drug addictions in the 1940's . It's an amazing fast read and I recommend it to any modern girl especially if you live in LA or NY or are around ppl who are in the same business. Another book I just started reading is called Fifth Avenue, 5 A.M. a book about Audrey Hepburn, so far so good.

Movies, lets see the best one I've probably seen lately is Social Network which I'm sure a lot of you also agree with me on. It was well made and told a great story.

Shows!!!! my all time favorites include Modern Family and Mad Men a comedy and a drama my two favorite genres of film/tv. Check out both!

FASHION~!!!! now if you know me you know that I love fashion and am also pursuing a side career as a fashion stylist/expert. Realistically if you have it in you then you do. It's all about having the EYE for fashion. Going to school isn't going to teach you that, you have to have a vision. Some of the things to know for fall. Grey&beige are very in, so put some of you black away and show your more neutral side. more to come soon in a separate fashion blog :)

Aside from that in my personal life I finally signed back up to a gym that offered great dance classes and it really makes me happy to be dancing again. I used to professionally dance for over 10 yrs and also did some choreography for my high school when I went off to college years ago. When I say professional dancing I'm referring to ballet, jazz, modern and others not stripping not that I have anything against it. To each is own. I encourage everyone to participate at least in one hobby. I know its hard to find time, but trust me if I can do it so can you. I have 3 jobs and i told myself I will find time to dance again at least once a week and so I did. Whether its dance, or some other form or art of whatever your interested in take it up and do it, you'll feel phenomenal !

On another more personal note, my best friend of gazillion years has been thru a bad heartbreak but you know what at least she's back in my presence. She moved away for a bit and now she's back, although hard to get back up on her feet again all of us friends and family are here to help her out. Things don't always turn out to be what we expect them to but you know what we only have one life to live and therefore we move on and find other happiness to fulfill us and inspire us to move on to bigger and better things.

I love you all who read my blogs before and thanks for all the support I'm really going to try to get back on here and find time to write, it really is one of my passions. With the right time I also hope to one day write some amazing novels. So many things inspire me as I get older, I'm loving the growing/learning experience.

Sunday, July 25, 2010


I haven't written a blog in a really long time. Why ? I'm not sure or where this one will go I'm not sure about either. Lately I've been thinking of how mentally things have changed for me. Every day I realize more and more that I'm becoming a woman, a grown up. Is it scary? yes! The more I think about it the more mind boggling it becomes. I'm going to be 25 by the end of the year and I have yet to establish a career and quit my bullshit jobs that get my bills paid and actually find something that I truly love and enjoy. It's also time to let go of the past loves and move forward with the new and fresh start. I want to find true love instead of being in love with a lie as I was in the past. I was in a situation of make believe of something that wasn't real. I'm now ready to fall in love again and actually pursue a serious relationship that has potential for longevity, involves respect and most of all meet someone that will love me for who I am.

I can definitely admit that I'm in a neutral state of my life where there's a lot of confusion and a lot that I would love to change now or as soon as possible, however and unfortunately I can't move the hand of time on my own I have to live thru it and experience certain ups and downs to get to the right place. I have so many questions floating thru my mind that I need answers for, sometimes it becomes very difficult for me to even breathe thru the day knowing that I can't find the answers to those questions instantly. But then I think to myself and realize that everything happens in time and eventually things fall into the right place or do they?

I suppose for now I can appreciate the aspects of my life that I have now until eventually the more suitable ones for me at least, come along. Meanwhile I will remain positive and strive to grow a better person every day.

Thank you and Goodnight

Monday, May 17, 2010

Spread LOVE

Romance is a big part of love, so is connection, chemistry and that spark you feel between yourself and your mate or even someone from your past or your future.
Love is a feeling that each person can characterize as their own, but when you feel it together w another person is unexplainable.
Why does love hurt yet feel so good at the same time? Its the big question we all ask ourselves its like having a thin line between love and hate and pain and healing. It can change in a second, a minute, an hour, a week or even last a lifetime.
I feel like these days love is very political and it kills the romance and that spark that you may have w person. Money, values, who supports who female vs. Male, who has more money, what house does one live in. If we throw all those things out the window can you imagine how amazing love would be if it was just PURE and the feeling only came from the ♡. Are we just afraid of honesty? Are we afraid to let our feelings flow? Or are we afraid of getting hurt? All we really need in the end of the day is LOVE, not money or objects or any other things. Its that feeling that keeps the flame lit, day after day its love whether from a man, a woman, a friend, daughter, son, pet, relative or neighbor. Its that feeling that makes your ♡ beat faster than you can possibly imagine. I feel it in my ♡ now and its such an incredible feeling and I want to share it with those that I feel it for and just throw all the politics out.
This being said call or go see the ones you love and tell them, kiss them just let them know and feel that connection thru your ♡ it will blow you away. Spread that energy, spread that love and I promise u'll feel incredible.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

A Story of a Survivor's Art... Documentary I produced w amazing classmates back in 2008

Please take a moment and check out this amazing 10 min documentary about an extra ordinary artist, I promise it will touch you like nothing ever did before. Enjoy

It is Irving Belfer's tragic past that has made him who he is today. He is a fun loving, joke making, 92 year old man who loves showing off what he is capable of doing. Much like a child, Mr. Belfer reaches out to those who will listen.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010


Check out my friend's blogsite MATRYOSHKA for Fashion!!!! and her interview on ME :) !!!!! Support her and read read read! Interesting stuff!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Just About Me....

I'm 24. I love to love and be loved. I think in weird ways. I love fashion. I love art. I'm an artist. Art fuels my heart. I like to read. I'm creative. I'm independent. A Workaholic. I do my own mani & pedi. I hate putting on lotion. I've only been in love once. When I love, I give my all. I'm want to be successful. I'm not family oriented, although I'd like to be. My dog is one of the only living things that keeps me sane. I live on my own. I'm not in debt. I hate summer. Music expresses me. I love performing arts. I miss dance and the 10 yrs of time I've put into it. I want to write a book. I love my friends. I don't have any enemies. I've sinned. I pray. I'm not really religious, but I believe in G-d. I've finished school, undergrad. I hate my jobs. I want to eventually get married. I love to imagine in different ways. I think I'm unique. I can be nice, but I'm more of a bitch. I can't tolerate stupid people. I've been fooled before. I lose my temper often. I love to dream. Often times I put others before myself. I wish I lived in the 60's. I don't like LA. I have 2 secrets, I sometimes wish I can share. I hate alcoholism.
to be continued.....

Tuesday, February 16, 2010


Secrets...I don't even know where to begin. I guess I have encountered some secrets that were kept from me and lied about. What I'm trying to say is that no matter how long you keep a secret it will always and in most instances slip out somewhere somehow. Lets start with the fact that if its about a friend and you're hiding something from them that will affect perhaps your friendship with that person, it is almost in all cases better to be honest about it and tell the TRUTH, then lie knowing that most likely you won't get away with it. The incident that I came across might be relevant to what I'm writing about but I just don't care enough to write all about it and go into detail since I had to deal with it for the last couple hours which was a complete waste of my time. 
Lets just say when you have a secret that you want to keep to yourself and its def. important not to share it with someone then by all means keep your mouth shut. But if for any reason you believe that this secret might be leaked by someone then you should def try to reveal it to that person before someone else does. It just makes the situation into a nastier one. Same goes with lies. When you lie to someone if it is very necessary to do so then you can do it, but if you know that the truth will come out and turn you out to be a liar don't do it because in the end you just make an ass out of yourself. Telling the truth however, once you're caught in the lie is of outmost importance to me. I'm all about truth and honesty even if its hurts. I rather know the truth and be mad at a person for knowing the truth, then knowing the truth when in fact that person is still going along with the LIE. 
This relates to only people who for instance do something behind someones back thats not 100% kosher and keep it as a secret, this does not refer to a secret that for instance your best friend tells you to keep for her/him. That's a whole different topic and not relevant to what I'm talking about in this particular blog. 
I'm super tired but I hope what I wrote makes sense. 
Remember to stay positive and all good will come to you. The one above has your back. Just give good and good will come to you. 

Peace and Love, Goodnight

Monday, January 4, 2010

remember YOU!

It's very important to take care of yourself and remember to always make ME time. No matter what happens its all about how you feel in the end of the day and if you forget to take care of yourself no one else will. Taking care of yourself can include anything from doing your nails and hair for the ladies, playing ball and shaving for the gents, to just keeping clean, dressing appropriately, reading, listening to things you like, eating right, exercising, etc. No one else will do these things for you but YOU, something to keep in mind!

What you do for yourself reflects on your mood, and the way others perceive you, which isn't really that important always its really how you feel inside out that really matters. Don't forget to make time for yourself and what you want in life. Whether in a relationship or single you can't forget about yourself. I know it gets tough when one is in a relationship its hard to remember about yourself and find time for  what I like to refer to as "ME time." Take a hike clear your head, take care of your body, do facials, scrubs, take baths, read, write, run, pursue your goals, find a career, keep up with your current job, succeed in things you love and care about, whatever it may be to you, do it. 

Recently I've been doing a lot of soul searching and also taking a lot of ME time to find myself and discover more about who I am and become over the years. I haven't done that in 3 years, and the freedom I finally feel now is amazing and quite refreshing. I'm learning new things about myself everyday. It's so important that I almost want to show you guys instead of putting it into words but hopefully you can understand the importance of what I'm saying here. Doing this can really help you get thru life and enjoy it to the fullest! 

Explore yourselves, find your interests, your strength, your weaknesses, your loves, your hates and become a better YOU, by indulging in some ME time. 

Writing has given me inspiration to do great things and to share it with you is even more inspirational .... that's one of the many important things I've learned by taking time out for myself... try it.. 

DREAM IT......FEEL IT.....THINK IT....... DO IT.