Saturday, December 26, 2009

I'm only human....

and sometimes it still hurts..... a lot....

I wish I can say more but I just can't... I have to stay strong.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Happy :)

Despite some of the bullshit I've been going thru this year I can finally say that I've learned so much about myself and that I'm finally back and comfortable in my skin and HAPPY. One thing that most of us seem to misunderstand at times is that happiness comes within, its inside you and what happy means to me is going to be different from what happy means to you. Others can't make you happy until you yourself find that within. Not your family, your man, your friends, or anyone. It all depends on you and how you define it for yourself. I can finally feel it again, although this might sound cliche to some of you, I feel like my prayers are finally being answered, and I do believe that each and every one of us has a purpose in this life.

On a lighter note although very much in relation to this topic, I've been dying and I mean really dying to go to the Lady Gaga concert since this weekend when I found out the show was this week!!!On such short notice I started to search for tickets and no luck at all everything was sold out. I wanted to go so bad. So last night my best friend tells me that she met a new friend and he is giving her 2 tickets to Lady Gaga concert for today! I literally almost fell off my chair. Believe it or not we went to the concert today and its was phenomenal. She's such a creative, interesting, and overall amazing artist. Our seats were great, and even better a huge star was sitting right behind us. To make the night even better I received the special edition Lady gaga everything booklet with her cd's, pics, posters anything you can imagine was in it! Thank you again V, this was amazing!

The point here is that, when you want something really bad and its genuinely coming from your clearest thoughts you attract it and it just happens, just like this. It's part of the attraction principles of life but that's a whole different topic, that I might get into in later posts. This can happen with anything or anyone you attract things, situations, people, so on and so forth, with your energy. Of course there's also a greater power that hears your prayers, for those of you who believe . Anything is possible depending on how bad you want it and how much effort you put into achieving it, it will happen.

Keep it positive and most importantly keep it moving! Life is too short, live it to the fullest and enjoy every moment of it, even during the bad ones because sometimes before it gets good it has to go bad. Without lessons that we learn almost everyday, life would be meaningless.

Goodnight, thanks for everyones support and to all of those who read my blogs. Love you All!

Monday, December 21, 2009

Expressing the moment.....

I'm not sure where this is going to go but I just know that I want to write. A million things go thru my mind daily. Some positive, some negative, thoughts about my new year, the goals I want to achieve, the target I want to have, my love life, my family problems, my friends, my future, my problems that I want to solve.

Sometimes I'm motivated and want to do the best for myself and at times just by seeing one small thing or hearing something that can disappoint me and I lose my focus. Same way one tiny incident or a few caring words from someone even a stranger can pick me back up and throw me back on the train of motivation. It all depends on your surrounding and the people you choose to have with you on the path to a brighter future. It's difficult cutting certain people out of your life but at times its the only choice you have to have a better life. Starting the new year thats one of my resolutions to keep only the positive people around and get rid of all those who are obstacles.

My future is something that I strongly think about everyday. I want to have an amazing career that I enjoy and love and make a great living for myself. With that I also want to eventually meet the man who will love me for who I am and enjoy every part of me. My best friend and I were just having a conversation today about how we'd love to meet that one man who will put a smile on our faces and just make us happy. The big question is always "when do you think we'll be married, when will we meet the one?" We watch all these shows and films where we see this incredible romance between two people in love, which is of course edited for effect by a bunch of professionals to make us believe something that doesn't always exist. But if we can at least get close to that edited for effect version somewhere in our reality, that would mean happiness. If you have faith and believe in love eventually it will creep up on you in the most unexpected time. So don't give up V, eventually you will be with someone who loves and adores you.

Life is like a puzzle of pieces that we eventually want to put together and see the picture,but sometimes its never ending and even if we one day put that puzzle together, we usually lose some pieces along the way, but that's life . We have to eventually find those pieces again in a new place, hopefully a better one and keep moving forward.